GRRRRRRRRRRRRR.....

the surrealness of the real

2004-09-10T04:55:51Z

toady was the first day of skool.. i still dont feel right here. I think every thing will be okay. i think nim ready for more serious monagomous relationships. i've always had a problem with comittment. i cant even choose a hair color so i put them all in. first home game is tomorrow. we have to wear our uniforms. i wonder who i will have lunch with. the smallest things have been effecting my life. i miss the good ol' days. regular high schoolers arent that accepting.. anyways... i think im going to bring the spice girls back... u have to admit they were catchy...GIRL POWER...HAHA

and i realized that i was alone....

2004-09-08T20:03:03Z

I never thought that this was going to tear at my soul as much as it is. I thought i had made the best desicion for myself, and i still pray i have but unless things change i dont think i'll make it. I would read other peoples journals and wonder how someone could be so down on themselves and be so self defeating but now i see. I cant even go to the mall or sign up for my classes with out tearing up. I guess i just feel realy vulnerable and alone. and i am. yesterday i registred for school and i just looked and listened to the people around me and im so afraid to start and be with these people. It's the same people that were in vegas just more to the extreme. every person i couldnt stand is every person i saw yesterday. the one thing that made me so excited and really sold me on this town is the one thing i'm not getting. I just cant describe how sad i feel right now. maybe it's that i havent comminucated with anyone lately. and the one person who i really thought would get me threw this i feel like hasnt been there. and at the same time i feel like im being selfish. I know the world doesnt revlove around me but i guess i wished for a second it would matter. the most defeating feeling in the world is not being missed when ur dying inside from missing

yerface127 @ 2004-07-27T23:35:00

2004-07-28T06:54:55Z

HAVE YOU EVER
1. Kissed your cousin: no
2. Ran away:kinda. i got kicked out...
3. Pictured your crush naked: yeah
4. skipped school: of course.. thats why i dont now spanish
5. Broken someone's heart: i dont think so..
6. Been in love:nope
7. Cried when someone died:no.. but my eyes glisened
8. Wanted someone you knew you couldn't have:yes..
9. Broken a bone: nope
10. Done something embarrasing: cant think of a day that passes that i dont embarras myself
11. Lied: everyday of my life
12. Cried in school:last day of skool...

WHICH IS BETTER
13. Coke or Pepsi: coke
14. Sprite or 7UP: 7 up urs
15. Girls or Guys: guys
16. Flowers or Candy: flowers..
17. Scruff or Clean shaved: depends..
18. Blondes or Brunettes: dyed..
19. Bitchy or Slutty: bitchy
20. Tall or Short: short!!!!!
21. Pants or Shorts: pants.
22. Night or Day: night

WITH THE OPPOSITE SEX
23. What do you notice first: eyes..
25. Worst Question To Ask: theres alot..
THE LAST TIME YOU...
26. Showered: this morning
27. Stepped outside: Today
28. Had Sex: alittle personal arent we..
29. Romantic memory: i dont know

FAVORITE
30. Your Good Luck Charm: ring
31. Person You Hate Most: uhhh i hate a lot
32. Best Thing That Has Happened: my surprise party
33. On your desk: computer
34. Picture on your desktop: a dodge ram
35. Color: bright pink
36. Movie: mallrats
37. Artist: dalhi.. he's creepy
38. Cars: volkwagen jetta..bmw 3 series..
39. Ice Cream: nutty cocanut
40. Season: spring
41. Breakfast Food: eggos..
42. Makes you laugh the most: my friendz
43. Makes you smile: buddies
44. Can make you feel better no matter what:friends
45. Has A Crush On You: i dont know..
46. Do You Have A Crush On Someone: kinda.. not really..
47. Who Has it easier? Girls or Guys? guys.
48. Gives you A Funny Feeling When You See Them: jessika..

DO YOU EVER
49. Sit by the phone waiting for a phone call all night? no
50. Save AOL conversations: no
51. Save E-mails: sometimes
52. Foward secret messages?: no
53. Wish you were someone else:wish i had something of someones.. byt not being them
54. Wish you were a member of the opposite sex: no
55. Wear perfume: tommy girl
56. kiss?: yup
57. Cuddle:my favorite thing
58. Go online for longer than eight hours at a time:my name wil be..

HAVE YOU EVER
59. Fallen for your best friend?:my best guy friend
60. Made out with JUST a friend?:yes
61. Kissed two people in the same day?:no
62. Had sex with two different people in the same day?no
63. Been rejected: from what?
64. Been in love?:\no
65. Been in lust?: yes
66. Used someone?: yeah
67. Been used?: probably
68. Cheated on someone?: yeah
69. Been cheated on?: yes
70. Been kissed?: yes.
71. Done something you regret?: no regrets.. life lessons..
WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON...
72. You touched?: my moma
73. You talked to?:ryan
74. You hugged?: my momma
75. You instant messaged?:jessika
76. You kissed?: charles
77. You yelled at?: eric
78. You thought about?: jessika
79. Who text messaged you?: xander
80. Who broke your heart?: i dont know
81. told you they loved you?: jessika

DO YOU...
82. Color your hair?: yes.
83. Have tattoos?: no
84. Have piercings?: si senor
85. Have a boyfriend/girlfriend?: no.
86. Own a webcam?: yes
87. Own a thong?: yeah
88. Ever get off the damn computer?: yeah
89. Sprechen Sie Deutsch?:no .. but i lived there for 5 years...
90. Habla espanol?: no...
91. Quack?:wtf?

HAVE YOU / DO YOU / ARE YOU...
92. Stolen anything?: yes
93. Smoke?: yeah
94. Schizophrenic?:every now and then
95. Obsessive?: can be
96. Compulsive?:sometimes
97. Obsessive compulsive?:sometimes
98. Panic?: at times
99. Anxiety?: at times
100. Depressed?: it's only natural

a letter from an old friend

2004-07-22T04:52:05Z

It's funny how we were totally best friends and now we act like strangers. It's also sad in a way. Well i just want you to know that i hope you havea great timewith your new life. I'll never forget you. Even though we dont talk i could never forget you. I'll never forget those days waiting and waiting to go some where sitting on the couch waiting for your mom to do whatever until we could finally go like 3 hours later. The time when you just got your license and we felt like teenagers for the first time and we pulled over cuz we thought these guys were hot and turned out they were actually not lol. Or just getting annoyed with paul. Anyways have fun, and live life to the fullest i know you will

this is all i do...

2004-07-19T04:09:34Z

Your love is... by ChibiMarronchan
Your name is...
Your kiss is...	delicious
Your hugs are...	to die for
Your eyes...	burn into my heart
Your touch is...	awakening my heart
Your smell is...	amazing
Your smile is...	encouraging
Your love is...	one of a kind

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yerface127 @ 2004-07-17T23:09:00

2004-07-18T06:00:57Z

Get to know the REAL you by crash_and_burn
Your Name
You Are A:	Nerd
Your Favorite Band/Song	The Ataris - Boys of Summer
You Like To Read:	Romance novels
You Firmly Believe In:	Nose-picking
Everyone Thinks You Are:	A cheap bastard
You Were Conceived:	By immaculate conception
You Will Marry:	A punk-rawker

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YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2004-07-13T21:33:19Z

ONLY 8 MORE DAYS TIL NO MORE BRACES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! IM SO EXCITED...

yerface127 @ 2004-07-12T01:54:00

2004-07-12T08:50:26Z

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yerface127 @ 2004-05-23T16:06:00

2004-05-23T22:58:33Z

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a Tear for those i will miss

2004-05-22T23:19:34Z

Today i cried.... It has finally hit me that everything is changing, those who leave for college, those who stay, I'm going to be alone, who lives in oregon anyway? there are only 8 skool days left... then im gone for a week, im never goning to see these people again, and im starting to feel sad.. of those few how will actually care im even gone, how often am i going to see them.. ny guess not to much. i never in a million years though that this town and these people would effect my life so much. this has been my home more than any other place in the world. I never have developed such an attachment to people and im really trully scared for the future. but at the same time im excited to see what lays ahead.you know who you are, Im missing you guys already, just the though of not spending my weekends and weekdays with you brings a tear to my eye. in the words of a close friend, " things change... thats life.."

yerface127 @ 2004-05-13T16:52:00

2004-05-13T23:45:18Z

went to skool... cant wait til 2morrow... family fight... bye bye

blah... blah... blah...

2004-05-13T03:56:37Z

I cant belive the year is almost over.... its gone so fast... my back hurts.... im bored.... ok... bye

yerface127 @ 2004-05-08T20:52:00

2004-05-09T03:54:24Z

You are burning

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Ugly starts with U

2004-05-06T01:45:14Z

Today at skool they were handing out flyers about how a church group is going to protest our skool for being "evil" ... People are so ignorent, It's hard to belive that in a society that has grown so much that a choice like who u find attractive would cause such caos. It's those who chose not to see the truth the become blind in the end.... well i g2g bye

yerface127 @ 2004-05-05T18:44:00

2004-05-06T01:36:43Z

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yerface127 @ 2004-04-15T19:17:00

2004-04-16T02:23:59Z

FIRSTS:
SCREEN NAME: dont remember
PIERCING/TATOO: ears
CREDIT CARD: nope
MAKEOUT SESSION: 5th grade
REAL boyfriend: anthony
TRUE LOVE: none existant
BEST FRIEND: jessika
ENEMY: too many
CONCERT: janet jackson
CAR ACCIDENT: 5th grade
BROKEN BONE: never
STITCHES: when i was like 6

xLASTSx
LONG CAR RIDE: pheonix a couple of weeks ago
KISS:wednesday during spring break
LIBRARY BOOK: an exposition of a death foretold by gariel garcia marquez
MOVIE: mallratz
MOVIE IN THE THEATER: passion of the christ
FOOD CONSUMED: bowl of noodles
PHONE CALL: jessika
CD PLAYED: modist mouse
ANNOYANCE: lillte brother
SODA:strwberylime jones soda
ICE CREAM:cocanut almound pinapple
TIME SCOLDED: like 2 minutes ago
WEBSITE VISITED: my email account
TIME YOU CRIED: i dont remeber
TIME YOU LAUGHED: today

xI...x
I AM: tired
I WANT:it to be the weekend
I HAVE: homework
I WISH: my family werent so weird
I HATE: stupid people
I FEAR: polyester cotton blends
I HEAR: voices on tv
I WONDER: if illever find someone
I LOVE: sleeping
I ACHE: in my knees
I ALWAYS: am bored
I AM NOT: funny
I DANCE: always
I CRY: more than i want to
I AM NOT ALWAYS: right
I WRITE: when i have something to say
I LOSE: at boardgames
I CONFUSE: everyone
I SHOULD: try harder

xYES or NOx
YOU KEEP A DIARY: yes
YOU LIKE TO COOK: no
YOU HAVE A SECRET YOU HAVE NOT SHARED WITH ANYONE: yes
HAVE A CRUSH: yeah
ARE IN LOVE: no
WANT TO GET MARRIED: yes
WANT CHILDREN:yes
DO YOU GET MOTION SICKNESS: yes
THINK YOURE A HEALTH FREAK: no
GET ALONG WITH YOUR PARENTS: mostly
LIKE THUNDERSTORMS:yes

xCURRENTx
HAIR COLOR: red
EYE COLOR: green
HAIRSTYLE: ponytail
SHIRT:black
PANTS: jeans
SOCKS: none
SHOES: none
MAKEUP: eyeliner, electric eel eyeshadow
MUSIC: None
WEATHER: normal
TIME: 7:23 pm
MOOD: blah

xFAVORITESx
NUMBER:uh 5?
COLOR:pink
DAY: friday
MONTH: december
SONG: lover i dont have to live- bright eyes
MOVIE: mallrats
DRINK: bohemian raspberry
MEAL: lasanga
FLOWER: white oleander
HOLIDAY: 4th of july
QUOTE: yer unique... just like everyone else
xPREFERENCESx
CUDDLE OR MAKE OUT: cuddle
CHOCOLATE MILK, OR HOT CHOCOLATE: Chocolate milk
MILK, DARK OR WHITE CHOCOLATE: Milk
RAIN OR SUN: sun
TOP OR BOTTOM: .........
TV OR MOVIE: Movie
DAY OR NIGHT: Night
DVD or VHS: DVD
FLUFFY PILLOW OR HARD PILLOW: Fluffy
TAN OR WHITE: tan
TALL OR SHORT: tall
TALK OR LISTEN: both
LEAD OR FOLLOW: lead

xIN THE LAST 24 HRS, HAVE YOUx
CRIED: no
HELPED SOMEONE: no
BOUGHT SOMETHING: makeup... food
GOTTEN SICK: no
GONE TO THE MOVIES: no
GONE OUT FOR DINNER: yes
SAID "I love you": yes
WRITTEN A REAL LETTER: no
TALKED TO AN EX: yes
MISSED AN EX: no
WRITTEN IN A JOURNAL: Yep
HAD A SERIOUS TALK: yes
MISSED SOMEONE: yes
HUGGED SOMEONE: yes
FOUGHT WITH A FRIEND:brandie... i kicked her ass im dance!!!lol i love u!
BRUSHED YOUR TEETH: yes
TAKEN A SHOWER: yes

xWOULD YOU EVERx
EAT A BUG: yes
BUNGEE JUMP: yes
KILL SOMEONE: depends
PARACHUTE: yes
WALK ON HOT COALS: no
GO OUT W/ SOMEONE FOR THEIR LOOKS:yeh
BE A VEGETARIAN: yeh
WEAR PLAID W/ STRIPES: yes
KISS A GIRL: yes
KISS A BOY: yes
IM A STRANGER: yes
SING KARAOKE: hell yeh .... American idol and shit
GET DRUNK: yeh
SMOKE A CIGERETTE: yeh
SMOKE WEED: yeh
GO TO A STRIP CLUB: yes
SHOPLIFT: depends
RUN A RED LIGHT: yeh
BE IN A PORNO: no
DYE YOUR HAIR BLUE: yeh
BE ON SURVIVOR: No
WEAR MAKEUP IN PUBLIC: yes
NOT WEAR MAKEUP IN PUBLIC: yes
CHEAT ON A TEST: yes
MAKE SOMEONE CRY: yes
DATE SOMEONE MORE THAN 10 YEARS OLDER THAN YOU:depends
DATE YOUR BEST FRIEND:maybe
STAY UP ALL NIGHT: yeh

yerface127 @ 2004-04-09T13:24:00

2004-04-09T20:21:08Z

the other day i hung out with jessika, cory, steve, and cody..... mallrats all the way.... Cory is sexy..... i just ate some cake.... very yummy.... my puppy has to get surgery :( im sad. ..... i miss teryn, wa need to hang out, even thought it's always my fault we dont...sorry..... i dont want to go back to skool... bye

yerface127 @ 2004-04-07T10:30:00

2004-04-07T17:28:40Z

last nite was fun... meet new people.... had some laughs.... ate yummy food (wendy's is the siznit!!!!!!!) i missed jessika, im glad she's back.... i got my shoes and their great!!!!!! my mom made an offer on a house, we find out 2 nite, i had mickey d's yummy again.... iurtiuythsrbdhgfjhsalk bye

yerface127 @ 2004-04-04T10:40:00

2004-04-04T17:37:43Z

Akward..... Have you ever been alone in a crowded room, 300 people around and know one would notice or care if you were there or not...What would make you want to socialize with those who dont care... if you have to change for someone ur losing yourself... i propose a new view of life for my self... i am who i am, i will not change for you, i will not expect you to change, i will be the same person around you as i am with everyone else, because i am not going to be that peerson who is just there, taking up the precious oxygen that everyone else needs more than you,i refuse to be another face in the crowd, and fuck you for thinkin i would

waitung

2004-04-04T00:16:43Z

So Im with teryn at her house and were waiting for larry to get here so she can have money cuz were poor and im just kind of spacing out.... good times