Below are the 20 most recent journal entries recorded in yerface127's LiveJournal:

Thursday, September 9th, 2004
9:49 pm	the surrealness of the real toady was the first day of skool.. i still dont feel right here. I think every thing will be okay. i think nim ready for more serious monagomous relationships. i've always had a problem with comittment. i cant even choose a hair color so i put them all in. first home game is tomorrow. we have to wear our uniforms. i wonder who i will have lunch with. the smallest things have been effecting my life. i miss the good ol' days. regular high schoolers arent that accepting.. anyways... i think im going to bring the spice girls back... u have to admit they were catchy...GIRL POWER...HAHA Current Mood: hopeful Current Music: spice girls... spice up ur life (Comment on this)
Wednesday, September 8th, 2004
1:02 pm	and i realized that i was alone.... I never thought that this was going to tear at my soul as much as it is. I thought i had made the best desicion for myself, and i still pray i have but unless things change i dont think i'll make it. I would read other peoples journals and wonder how someone could be so down on themselves and be so self defeating but now i see. I cant even go to the mall or sign up for my classes with out tearing up. I guess i just feel realy vulnerable and alone. and i am. yesterday i registred for school and i just looked and listened to the people around me and im so afraid to start and be with these people. It's the same people that were in vegas just more to the extreme. every person i couldnt stand is every person i saw yesterday. the one thing that made me so excited and really sold me on this town is the one thing i'm not getting. I just cant describe how sad i feel right now. maybe it's that i havent comminucated with anyone lately. and the one person who i really thought would get me threw this i feel like hasnt been there. and at the same time i feel like im being selfish. I know the world doesnt revlove around me but i guess i wished for a second it would matter. the most defeating feeling in the world is not being missed when ur dying inside from missing Current Mood: lonely Current Music: the blood brothers- ambulance (Comment on this)
Tuesday, July 27th, 2004
11:35 pm	HAVE YOU EVER 1. Kissed your cousin: no 2. Ran away:kinda. i got kicked out... 3. Pictured your crush naked: yeah 4. skipped school: of course.. thats why i dont now spanish 5. Broken someone's heart: i dont think so.. 6. Been in love:nope 7. Cried when someone died:no.. but my eyes glisened 8. Wanted someone you knew you couldn't have:yes.. 9. Broken a bone: nope 10. Done something embarrasing: cant think of a day that passes that i dont embarras myself 11. Lied: everyday of my life 12. Cried in school:last day of skool... WHICH IS BETTER 13. Coke or Pepsi: coke 14. Sprite or 7UP: 7 up urs 15. Girls or Guys: guys 16. Flowers or Candy: flowers.. 17. Scruff or Clean shaved: depends.. 18. Blondes or Brunettes: dyed.. 19. Bitchy or Slutty: bitchy 20. Tall or Short: short!!!!! 21. Pants or Shorts: pants. 22. Night or Day: night WITH THE OPPOSITE SEX 23. What do you notice first: eyes.. 25. Worst Question To Ask: theres alot.. THE LAST TIME YOU... 26. Showered: this morning 27. Stepped outside: Today 28. Had Sex: alittle personal arent we.. 29. Romantic memory: i dont know FAVORITE 30. Your Good Luck Charm: ring 31. Person You Hate Most: uhhh i hate a lot 32. Best Thing That Has Happened: my surprise party 33. On your desk: computer 34. Picture on your desktop: a dodge ram 35. Color: bright pink 36. Movie: mallrats 37. Artist: dalhi.. he's creepy 38. Cars: volkwagen jetta..bmw 3 series.. 39. Ice Cream: nutty cocanut 40. Season: spring 41. Breakfast Food: eggos.. 42. Makes you laugh the most: my friendz 43. Makes you smile: buddies 44. Can make you feel better no matter what:friends 45. Has A Crush On You: i dont know.. 46. Do You Have A Crush On Someone: kinda.. not really.. 47. Who Has it easier? Girls or Guys? guys. 48. Gives you A Funny Feeling When You See Them: jessika.. DO YOU EVER 49. Sit by the phone waiting for a phone call all night? no 50. Save AOL conversations: no 51. Save E-mails: sometimes 52. Foward secret messages?: no 53. Wish you were someone else:wish i had something of someones.. byt not being them 54. Wish you were a member of the opposite sex: no 55. Wear perfume: tommy girl 56. kiss?: yup 57. Cuddle:my favorite thing 58. Go online for longer than eight hours at a time:my name wil be.. HAVE YOU EVER 59. Fallen for your best friend?:my best guy friend 60. Made out with JUST a friend?:yes 61. Kissed two people in the same day?:no 62. Had sex with two different people in the same day?no 63. Been rejected: from what? 64. Been in love?:\no 65. Been in lust?: yes 66. Used someone?: yeah 67. Been used?: probably 68. Cheated on someone?: yeah 69. Been cheated on?: yes 70. Been kissed?: yes. 71. Done something you regret?: no regrets.. life lessons.. WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON... 72. You touched?: my moma 73. You talked to?:ryan 74. You hugged?: my momma 75. You instant messaged?:jessika 76. You kissed?: charles 77. You yelled at?: eric 78. You thought about?: jessika 79. Who text messaged you?: xander 80. Who broke your heart?: i dont know 81. told you they loved you?: jessika DO YOU... 82. Color your hair?: yes. 83. Have tattoos?: no 84. Have piercings?: si senor 85. Have a boyfriend/girlfriend?: no. 86. Own a webcam?: yes 87. Own a thong?: yeah 88. Ever get off the damn computer?: yeah 89. Sprechen Sie Deutsch?:no .. but i lived there for 5 years... 90. Habla espanol?: no... 91. Quack?:wtf? HAVE YOU / DO YOU / ARE YOU... 92. Stolen anything?: yes 93. Smoke?: yeah 94. Schizophrenic?:every now and then 95. Obsessive?: can be 96. Compulsive?:sometimes 97. Obsessive compulsive?:sometimes 98. Panic?: at times 99. Anxiety?: at times 100. Depressed?: it's only natural Current Mood: amused Current Music: tacking back sunday-im fred astaire (Comment on this)
Wednesday, July 21st, 2004
9:56 pm	a letter from an old friend It's funny how we were totally best friends and now we act like strangers. It's also sad in a way. Well i just want you to know that i hope you havea great timewith your new life. I'll never forget you. Even though we dont talk i could never forget you. I'll never forget those days waiting and waiting to go some where sitting on the couch waiting for your mom to do whatever until we could finally go like 3 hours later. The time when you just got your license and we felt like teenagers for the first time and we pulled over cuz we thought these guys were hot and turned out they were actually not lol. Or just getting annoyed with paul. Anyways have fun, and live life to the fullest i know you will Current Mood: contemplative Current Music: cursive-the recluse (Comment on this)
Sunday, July 18th, 2004
9:18 pm	this is all i do... Your love is... by ChibiMarronchan Your name is... Your kiss is... delicious Your hugs are... to die for Your eyes... burn into my heart Your touch is... awakening my heart Your smell is... amazing Your smile is... encouraging Your love is... one of a kind Created with the ORIGINAL MemeGen! Current Mood: amused Current Music: the killers-jenny was a friend of mine (Comment on this)
Saturday, July 17th, 2004
11:09 pm	Get to know the REAL you by crash_and_burn Your Name You Are A: Nerd Your Favorite Band/Song The Ataris - Boys of Summer You Like To Read: Romance novels You Firmly Believe In: Nose-picking Everyone Thinks You Are: A cheap bastard You Were Conceived: By immaculate conception You Will Marry: A punk-rawker Created with the ORIGINAL MemeGen! Current Mood: spacy Current Music: new kids on the block (Comment on this)
Tuesday, July 13th, 2004
2:36 pm	YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ONLY 8 MORE DAYS TIL NO MORE BRACES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! IM SO EXCITED... Current Mood: anxious Current Music: THE KILLERS... ANDY YOUR A STAR.. (Comment on this)
Monday, July 12th, 2004
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Sunday, May 23rd, 2004
4:06 pm	yerface127 Look out for the m HOLE Username: From Go-Quiz.com (Comment on this)
Saturday, May 22nd, 2004
4:18 pm	a Tear for those i will miss Today i cried.... It has finally hit me that everything is changing, those who leave for college, those who stay, I'm going to be alone, who lives in oregon anyway? there are only 8 skool days left... then im gone for a week, im never goning to see these people again, and im starting to feel sad.. of those few how will actually care im even gone, how often am i going to see them.. ny guess not to much. i never in a million years though that this town and these people would effect my life so much. this has been my home more than any other place in the world. I never have developed such an attachment to people and im really trully scared for the future. but at the same time im excited to see what lays ahead.you know who you are, Im missing you guys already, just the though of not spending my weekends and weekdays with you brings a tear to my eye. in the words of a close friend, " things change... thats life.." Current Mood: indescribable Current Music: Cursive (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, May 13th, 2004
4:52 pm	went to skool... cant wait til 2morrow... family fight... bye bye Current Mood: amused Current Music: death cab for cutie (Comment on this)
Wednesday, May 12th, 2004
9:03 pm	blah... blah... blah... I cant belive the year is almost over.... its gone so fast... my back hurts.... im bored.... ok... bye Current Mood: blah Current Music: Coheed (Comment on this)
Saturday, May 8th, 2004
8:52 pm	You are burning What Self-Mutilation Are You? brought to you by Quizilla Current Mood: full (Comment on this)
Wednesday, May 5th, 2004
6:49 pm	Ugly starts with U Today at skool they were handing out flyers about how a church group is going to protest our skool for being "evil" ... People are so ignorent, It's hard to belive that in a society that has grown so much that a choice like who u find attractive would cause such caos. It's those who chose not to see the truth the become blind in the end.... well i g2g bye Current Mood: contemplative Current Music: death cab for cutie (1 Comment |Comment on this)
6:44 pm	<TABLE BORDER=0><TR><TD> <A HREF="http://www.thisisacryforhelp.com/shitquiz.htm"><IMG BORDER=0 ALIGN="LEFT" WIDTH=200 HEIGHT=140 SRC="http://www.thisisacryforhelp.com/quiz/shitquiz/dingle.jpg"></A>I am <B>A Dingle Berry </B>.<BR /> Dingle berries... we all know one. clinging to that parent or significant other for dear life.. basing every discussion on the opinions and actions of that one special person. the mama's boy (or girl) of the shit family, but Dingle berries do have a dark side and are known for their jealousy and sudden bursts of anger and violence though the life of a Dingle berry may seem meaning less, it does have its upsides... usually death.<br><A HREF="http://www.thisisacryforhelp.com/shitquiz.htm">What Kinda Shit Are You?</A> Current Mood: amused (Comment on this)
Thursday, April 15th, 2004
7:17 pm	FIRSTS: SCREEN NAME: dont remember PIERCING/TATOO: ears CREDIT CARD: nope MAKEOUT SESSION: 5th grade REAL boyfriend: anthony TRUE LOVE: none existant BEST FRIEND: jessika ENEMY: too many CONCERT: janet jackson CAR ACCIDENT: 5th grade BROKEN BONE: never STITCHES: when i was like 6 xLASTSx LONG CAR RIDE: pheonix a couple of weeks ago KISS:wednesday during spring break LIBRARY BOOK: an exposition of a death foretold by gariel garcia marquez MOVIE: mallratz MOVIE IN THE THEATER: passion of the christ FOOD CONSUMED: bowl of noodles PHONE CALL: jessika CD PLAYED: modist mouse ANNOYANCE: lillte brother SODA:strwberylime jones soda ICE CREAM:cocanut almound pinapple TIME SCOLDED: like 2 minutes ago WEBSITE VISITED: my email account TIME YOU CRIED: i dont remeber TIME YOU LAUGHED: today xI...x I AM: tired I WANT:it to be the weekend I HAVE: homework I WISH: my family werent so weird I HATE: stupid people I FEAR: polyester cotton blends I HEAR: voices on tv I WONDER: if illever find someone I LOVE: sleeping I ACHE: in my knees I ALWAYS: am bored I AM NOT: funny I DANCE: always I CRY: more than i want to I AM NOT ALWAYS: right I WRITE: when i have something to say I LOSE: at boardgames I CONFUSE: everyone I SHOULD: try harder xYES or NOx YOU KEEP A DIARY: yes YOU LIKE TO COOK: no YOU HAVE A SECRET YOU HAVE NOT SHARED WITH ANYONE: yes HAVE A CRUSH: yeah ARE IN LOVE: no WANT TO GET MARRIED: yes WANT CHILDREN:yes DO YOU GET MOTION SICKNESS: yes THINK YOURE A HEALTH FREAK: no GET ALONG WITH YOUR PARENTS: mostly LIKE THUNDERSTORMS:yes xCURRENTx HAIR COLOR: red EYE COLOR: green HAIRSTYLE: ponytail SHIRT:black PANTS: jeans SOCKS: none SHOES: none MAKEUP: eyeliner, electric eel eyeshadow MUSIC: None WEATHER: normal TIME: 7:23 pm MOOD: blah xFAVORITESx NUMBER:uh 5? COLOR:pink DAY: friday MONTH: december SONG: lover i dont have to live- bright eyes MOVIE: mallrats DRINK: bohemian raspberry MEAL: lasanga FLOWER: white oleander HOLIDAY: 4th of july QUOTE: yer unique... just like everyone else xPREFERENCESx CUDDLE OR MAKE OUT: cuddle CHOCOLATE MILK, OR HOT CHOCOLATE: Chocolate milk MILK, DARK OR WHITE CHOCOLATE: Milk RAIN OR SUN: sun TOP OR BOTTOM: ......... TV OR MOVIE: Movie DAY OR NIGHT: Night DVD or VHS: DVD FLUFFY PILLOW OR HARD PILLOW: Fluffy TAN OR WHITE: tan TALL OR SHORT: tall TALK OR LISTEN: both LEAD OR FOLLOW: lead xIN THE LAST 24 HRS, HAVE YOUx CRIED: no HELPED SOMEONE: no BOUGHT SOMETHING: makeup... food GOTTEN SICK: no GONE TO THE MOVIES: no GONE OUT FOR DINNER: yes SAID "I love you": yes WRITTEN A REAL LETTER: no TALKED TO AN EX: yes MISSED AN EX: no WRITTEN IN A JOURNAL: Yep HAD A SERIOUS TALK: yes MISSED SOMEONE: yes HUGGED SOMEONE: yes FOUGHT WITH A FRIEND:brandie... i kicked her ass im dance!!!lol i love u! BRUSHED YOUR TEETH: yes TAKEN A SHOWER: yes xWOULD YOU EVERx EAT A BUG: yes BUNGEE JUMP: yes KILL SOMEONE: depends PARACHUTE: yes WALK ON HOT COALS: no GO OUT W/ SOMEONE FOR THEIR LOOKS:yeh BE A VEGETARIAN: yeh WEAR PLAID W/ STRIPES: yes KISS A GIRL: yes KISS A BOY: yes IM A STRANGER: yes SING KARAOKE: hell yeh .... American idol and shit GET DRUNK: yeh SMOKE A CIGERETTE: yeh SMOKE WEED: yeh GO TO A STRIP CLUB: yes SHOPLIFT: depends RUN A RED LIGHT: yeh BE IN A PORNO: no DYE YOUR HAIR BLUE: yeh BE ON SURVIVOR: No WEAR MAKEUP IN PUBLIC: yes NOT WEAR MAKEUP IN PUBLIC: yes CHEAT ON A TEST: yes MAKE SOMEONE CRY: yes DATE SOMEONE MORE THAN 10 YEARS OLDER THAN YOU:depends DATE YOUR BEST FRIEND:maybe STAY UP ALL NIGHT: yeh Current Mood: amused Current Music: silence (Comment on this)
Friday, April 9th, 2004
1:24 pm	the other day i hung out with jessika, cory, steve, and cody..... mallrats all the way.... Cory is sexy..... i just ate some cake.... very yummy.... my puppy has to get surgery :( im sad. ..... i miss teryn, wa need to hang out, even thought it's always my fault we dont...sorry..... i dont want to go back to skool... bye Current Mood: indifferent Current Music: glassjaw (Comment on this)
Wednesday, April 7th, 2004
10:30 am	last nite was fun... meet new people.... had some laughs.... ate yummy food (wendy's is the siznit!!!!!!!) i missed jessika, im glad she's back.... i got my shoes and their great!!!!!! my mom made an offer on a house, we find out 2 nite, i had mickey d's yummy again.... iurtiuythsrbdhgfjhsalk bye Current Mood: peaceful Current Music: bright eyes( lover i dont have to love) (Comment on this)
Sunday, April 4th, 2004
10:40 am	Akward..... Have you ever been alone in a crowded room, 300 people around and know one would notice or care if you were there or not...What would make you want to socialize with those who dont care... if you have to change for someone ur losing yourself... i propose a new view of life for my self... i am who i am, i will not change for you, i will not expect you to change, i will be the same person around you as i am with everyone else, because i am not going to be that peerson who is just there, taking up the precious oxygen that everyone else needs more than you,i refuse to be another face in the crowd, and fuck you for thinkin i would (Comment on this)
Saturday, April 3rd, 2004
4:14 pm	waitung So Im with teryn at her house and were waiting for larry to get here so she can have money cuz were poor and im just kind of spacing out.... good times Current Mood: blah Current Music: teryn playing the geetar (Comment on this)